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Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Random Acts of Kindness

When I originally thought of planning Maddox's first birthday, never did I think I would be planning ways to remember him. But here we are.

His birthday is a little over 2 months away and I have pondered over many ideas. One idea though kept coming back to me over and over again. I saw this idea on another blog and I feel that it is the best way to honor our little boy.

Random Acts of Kindness.

I am going to ask all of our family and friends, including the wonderful people I have met through this blog, to participate in this. This is the reason I am announcing it kind of early. I would like to give everyone plenty of time.

At some point between now and Maddox's birthday on October 5th, please take a little time and do something kind for a stranger in Maddox's name.

I would love to hear what everyone does so if possible, email me, call me, or message me what your random act of kindness was.

A mother shouldn't have to plan her dead child's first birthday celebration, but I am trying to make the best of it. I know that we are all extremely busy, but keep in mind how big of a differenc one small act of kindness can make in someone's life. Plus, it is an amazing way to remember a very special little boy.
Thanks again everyone for your continuous love and support. <3

Below I have listed a few ideas to get you started.

  • Collect items for a charity (food, clothes, etc.)
  • Volunteer (school, nursing home, hotpital, etc.)
  • When buying your coffee, purchase the person's behind you
  • Bring co-workers a special treat
  • Slip paper hearts that say “It’s Random Acts of Kindness Week! Have a great day!” under the windshield wipers of parked cars
  • Take baked goods to your neighbors
  • Give blood
  • Put change in a vending machine for the next person
  • Take flowers to a hospital
  • Donate clothes and other supplies to a homeless shelter

These are of course just a few ideas, get creative and do something kind! Opening the door for someone or telling a stranger to have a good day can make a huge impact! Oh and remember that Google is your friend, there are a ton of great ideas on the internet.

Friday, July 19, 2013


Some days the loss of our son doesn't feel real.
Even after 9 months, I still can't believe this really happened to us.
There are days when my grief feels really far away.
Then days like today it feels extremely close.
My heart feels as if it is breaking all over again.

Last night Cody and I laid in bed together and wondered about our children.
What they are like now.
Do they understand the terrible choice we had to make.
Do they miss us as much as I miss them.

Today my grief is ugly.
Today the loss of our children weighs heavily on my heart.
Today I miss them. I worry about them. I love them.