Loving Life

Laying in bed last night

Listening to Cody snore

After having yet another giggle session together

I thought to myself "I love my life"

This sleepy thought startled me into conciousness

How can I possibly think I love my life

When my son died?

Then I really started thinking about my life

I have been so blessed

Of course I have had many trials

Especially the trial of losing Maddox

Sometimes I have felt like I dont know how I will make it through

Then Cody looks at me with all the love in the world

Or a friend or family member will reach out to me

I am then reminded how lucky I really am

It is easy to get down and negative

To get wrapped up in the never ending grief

However, life is too short to live that way

Each day is a struggle

A struggle to act normal

To be happy

But I am trying

We are planning for the future

Planning another addition to our family

Moving forward

Life is difficult

Life is terrifying

Life is beautiful